Soft Love

There are answers I’m seeking and conclusions I’m trying to reach. I suppose what’s coming up for me is a bit of grief about Oaxaca. Even writing the name makes my throat tighten. It’s only been four days since i've left. My relationship with things are shifting, but change means I’m on my yellow brick road.

I find myself trying to make up reasons in my head to confirm that walking away was the right move. But even the phrase “walking away” feels harsh, rigid. If Oaxaca taught me anything, it’s that my love is softer now—more natural, less bound by rigid ideas of what love is supposed to be.

Maybe it doesn’t have to be that I "walked away." Maybe it’s simply that I am open to seeing what else the world has in store for me. It doesn’t have to be this breakup; it can be that these connections are transitioning in a way that will benefit us all. It’s not that I left you; it’s that maybe I am exploring what my heart envisions. It’s not that you’re acting different; it’s that circumstances have shifted. It’s not that I don’t love you; it’s that you are unforgettable.

If you know me, you know I am open to seeing what the world has for me, no matter how hard a goodbye might be... These connection are evolving in a way that supports us all. We are exploring our paths in a new and different light. We are unforgettable, and the fire is still burning if we choose to fuel it. My door will always be open to you.

I feel my love being challenged, redefined, expanded, in the best way possible. I don’t want to put boundaries or definitions on it—that wouldn’t be unconditional love. Right now, my love feels like an open, revolving door. My heart is open to all things, all people. In the past, I would step outside and check if someone was coming. Now, the space beyond my door is a haven—a place where I am seen, valued, protected. My world of love is not just a door. It is a space that calls people in, a place they don’t want to leave. And sometimes, I’m the one who has to put up a sign saying, “Closed for business.”

Hahaha.