ch. 1 pg. 9

I haven't posted on here in a minute... How time flies when you're in the moment. A lot has happened since my first month here. It's only been three months, but I feel like a different person. I came here with high expectations for myself, trying to be this "perfect" version. Soon enough, I realized the version of me right now is perfect within itself.

My first month here was hard. No matter how much you move and push yourself outside your comfort zone, the adjustment period always hurts—mentally and emotionally. Three months in, I now have three friends I can count on, who make me laugh, who enjoy food, and who love chit-chatting about the little things.

Within these three months, I went back to America for Thanksgiving, produced two amazing chakra courses for my business, got into a raging fight with an old roommate, cried to the moon, joined a gym, went on a date, tried mole negro, discovered cafés that feel like home, found restaurants that feel like home, and uncovered the best deals around the city.

Transitioning into 2025 was smooth. I was in bed with my earplugs by 12 o'clock, reflecting and painting the picture for the miracles to come. Through meditation, a powerful mantra came to me: "There is nothing outside of me that determines my beauty, worth, and deservingness for a good life."

Whether I was conscious of it or not, I realized that even in simple moments—like talking to strangers or ordering food at a restaurant—there was a small part of me that made me feel "less than" or not as good as the person I was conversing with. Searching for that validation, you know? This mindset limits my potential so much and is completely made up in my head. But I feel like we might all do this. Discovering this realization during meditation before 2025 was genius. I hesitated to share this because it feels so personal, but it's also so relatable. I know people struggle deeply with their worth and self-confidence. It’s a constant work in progress. Now, when I catch myself feeling this way, I place a hand over my heart and strive to be the courageous one. Please use my mantra as a guiding force when you need a sparkle of courage or self-love.

Three months later, I’m grateful for everything that has happened. I have no clue what’s going to happen in the future, when I’m going to leave, or what tomorrow will even look like.

The more I realize that this is my movie, my projection, and that everything I need is within me, the more my worries fades—and the more I feel empowered to shoot for the stars. I have everything I need. Everything I need finds me.

I enjoy posting little stories on here like this because this is truly my journal, an extension of my mind in physical form. I get to look back at this one day and say, "ahahaha I remember that!!!."

Love ya Chels, keep going xx <3